Losing grip vs. Letting go

DISCLAIMER: For those expecting this blog entry to talk about love, well, guys, sorry. This post isn't about that. (Or at least, not about that ANYMORE.)

I have a disease. It's a little unusual and it's an indication of something worse--immaturity (but it's arguable).

I have this tendency to get attached to something or someone so easily that by the time I should let go, I actually restrain myself from doing so. I always tell people that I HAVE moved on but in fact, the thought haunts me every night and I am having this weird feeling of pain and discomfort--like there's a pea in my bed and someone's stabbing my chest.

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And the countdown has already started

Seventy-one days before graduation day and my future seems to hiding beneath thick clouds, high moutains and piles of paperworks.

Counting the remaining days of college life does not make me feel any better. I have lost the drive to study, I have lost the enthusiasm on my thesis (after countless failed attempts to schedule interviews and gather necessary documents). I have lost the desire to wake up early and attend classes. I have lost myself.

I can't remember exactly if this was how I felt during the last few months of my highschool or elementary. But I know for sure that this is not normal. A friend told me maybe it's because I have this tendency to work really hard towards the end.  But in as much as I know that the end is fast approaching, I haven't found myseld working.

I need to focus.

It's not that I wanted to leave college (heaven knows how much I love it). It's just that, I want to move up. Tweet

Step back. Look forward.

 

 Letting go does not necessarily mean forgetting what happened, it means you acknowledge it happened and that things are better kept that way.

 Sometimes, in order for us to move ahead, we need to step back and just take a look at everything. 

It took a quite a long time for me and quite a hard time for my friends to remind me about these things. Nevertheless, at least, now, I can smile, take that step and move ahead. :-) 

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